Shraddha Shares – My MukkaMaar Fellowship Experience

This year was a rollercoaster of emotions and gaining mental strength alongside a wonderful journey of growth for me. Because of past experience, it was too hard for me to share my workspace with my fellow partner at school. Woh bhi unke sath jinhe main hardly janti hoon. Nooo … A big no! And the expectation is that I have to help them, guide them, and support them so that they can grow. It was too difficult for me to do all of these things. I used to feel like, ‘Main akele jyada better kar lungi’, ‘Main kyu iski help karu?’ ‘Isko help karne mein time lagane se accha main hi karlu’.

There were a lot of things that were pushing me down but one day at school, Ladkiyon ko squat karne mein bahut problem ho rahi thi, and my partner was getting irritated training them. I was observing ladkiyon ke reactions, unki shakal se hi pata chal raha tha ki woh log karna chahte hai but aata nahi, aur kuch ladkiyon ka shakal yeh keh raha tha ki, ‘Aa nahi raha koi push kar do’. At that moment I went in the circle and started squatting with them making funny noises. The girls went crazy… And they started doing it with a lot of fun. At that moment, I realised, ‘It’s necessary to be a bridge and act as a helping hand for others so that one can grow and polish oneself with them.’

There was a phase where my parents were questioning my growth, about me, and expecting me to earn more at some private firm and even I was questioning myself but each and every girl at school made me realise that ‘Yes! It’s important for me to live a life that is less ordinary.’